A Letter To My 13 Year Old Self ✍

During the most confusing times of your life, you find the most clarity. It's up to you to realize the message in what you do, say or hear.

Dear 13 Year Old Self,

I know this time may seem hard. You have just entered your teen years.

A time where love wasn't fully expressed.

...where conversations were left without a period.

...where there would be days you wouldn't even get a greeting.

Life may seem hard right now, finding your place in the world without having that direction or support.

You may feel lost and confused.

You may feel lonely and that it's your fault.

You may feel unloved and emotionally on your own.

Trust me when I say, this is all a part of the journey to who you are meant to be.

You will learn to be resilient.

You will discover your strengths.

You will learn how to set healthy boundaries.

You may feel like you were a rebel at times.

...like you were just being a hardhead.

...like you knew it all.

However, you were just living with what you were given at the time. You were coping with what you had, or should I say the lack of. You needed love. You needed an outlet. You needed someone to talk to.

You will look for it in places that are not ideal.

You will walk down a spiraling path.

You will go through the hardest times.

But again, it will happen for you and not to you.

Love and attention are two of the feelings we crave the most. A feeling you have craved since as far back as you can remember.

You fought for love.

You fought for attention.

You fought for understanding.

You fought to find your voice.

You fought to express yourself.

You fought with pleasing everyone.

You fought to do things for you.

But again, it happened for you and not to you.

You will grow to understand what happened. To understand that what you craved was something that you, yourself, held throughout your life. Looking for love and attention in the world, only led you to a bottomless pit, but it had to happen for you to realize that you needed to love yourself unconditionally and give yourself the attention you deserve.

No one will love you like you will.

No one will give you the time of day like you will.

No one will understand you like you will.

No one will stick up for you like you will.

13 was the peak of losing it, and you will lose it for the next 3 years.

But again, it will happen for you and not to you.

You will be ridiculed for the decisions you have made.

You will be judged for all of your "mistakes".

You will be talked about by those closest to you.

During this time you will learn that you have had someone there the whole time...YOU! You and GUS (God. Universe. Source.)

You will always have someone there with you, guiding you. It may not seem like much right now, but you will definitely understand and be grateful for that much.

Sincerely,

The Universe

We may go through the hardest times in our life in a second, a minute, an hour, a day, or a year. However, what you do with that is totally up to you.

You have to realize that we all came to this earth to learn something. It all leads back to love in some shape and form.

Exercise

I want you to look inside yourself today. To scan the last few years, or just the hardest time of your life. I want you to write down what are the things you lacked, how you coped with it, and how you believe this helped you become the person you are today. One thing I want you to do for that version of yourself, is to hold space for that version of you. Write down what you would say to that version of yourself right now.

Until next time,

Yvonne (Eve)

xoxo

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